the sun is screamin' your name: idkill4thkillers replied to your post: Dear mom, As a person with...
idkill4thkillers replied to your post: Dear mom,
As a person with naturally curly hair I say dont listen to her. If you let your hair grow out & don’t straighten it for a while you will look beautiful! Healthy natural hair is way prettier than dry damaged hair. If you ever need…Thanks :) My hair used to be really frizzy too, when I was younger and didn’t know how to use product. I use Pantene shampoo and conditioner for curls from dry to moisturized, and it really helps. Then after I put on some anti frizz serum by Herbal Essence and it’s all good. At the beginning of high school I used to do my hair all the time, but then I just got super lazy and never felt like looking pretty because I realized who cares what I look like since my school is filled with a bunch of assholes. As for your mom, you gotta try to just ignore her. My mom is really mean to me about what I wear since I tend to wear jeans and band shirts instead of pretty girly stuff, I just tell her I am me and she has to relax. She usually gets mad but it doesn’t really matter because I know she loves me and she is just superficial. I hope everything works out for you! Maybe if you grow your hair out it’ll be less frizzy?
I’ve been wanting to try a whole bunch of those moisturizing/repairing/etc. shampoos and such, but my mom’s got me going to her hairdresser every 4 months for keratin treatments, so that I can straighten my hair without it dying (which actually doesn’t work out as well as it should; I have genetically weird hair lol). But the way that treatment is, I can’t use shampoo or conditioner with sulfates or some specific chlorides in them.
I’m supposed to go back in August, but I think I’m just going to tell the lady I don’t want to have it done, take my money to someone who isn’t under my mom’s apparent mind control, and get something less restrictive done. Or just not do it at all.
And, in all honesty, I’m going to college, so I’m hoping when I do end up coming home for certain weekends or whatever, she’ll focus more on the fact that she missed me, and less on the fact that I’m ugly. And if not, I’ll send letters and stay in Buffalo for months at a time, because I really can’t handle her constant insults and negativity during the school year.
ALSO! (I’m almost done, I promise!) I really have the same attitude towards doing my hair for school. Yeah, there’s the value of first impressions, but I’m not really sure that the people who will make decisions about me based on how I look are the people I want to be too close with anyways. Tried that once, and it didn’t end well at all.
Confessions.
- I have no useful talents whatsoever. I can play clarinet. I’m kind of artistic.
- I want to be a writer. And I have since I was very little.
- It’s really easy to make me feel like I’m being the bad guy.
- I’m fully aware of the fact that I’m naturally ugly.
- I’m a huge burden to everyone I know.
- When people start ignoring me, I start ignoring them.
- I’m a nail-biter. Despite what the doctor says, I know it’s a nervous thing.
- I’m in love. Very. ♥
- I try to help people. Which is pathetic, because I can’t even help myself.
- I wish I had a teacher at school that I was really close with.
- My biggest fear is that the people I love will walk away from me just because they can.
- I only trust one person. ONE.
- If I hear the phrase “I needed someone to talk to, and he was there for me.” One. More. Time, things will be shot at.
- I’m afraid of going to college. Mostly because I don’t know what will become of my relationship.
- I don’t care for apologies, unless I can really tell that they’re heartfelt. If you’re “so sorry” that you can’t ever find the time to be there for me when I need you, don’t even bother apologizing. Just leave. Because there’s a pretty good chance that you’re killing me.
- I’m giggly. Especially when people are unexpectedly nice to me.
- I’ve considered suicide before, and realized that I’m too much of a pussy to ever do it. (No worries.)
- I hate half of my day, every day. Inevitably.
- I’m incredibly intelligent. I just don’t like to show it off. It makes me feel self-centered.
- I’m cool with gay people. And people hate me for it.
- I suck at Guitar Hero. I wish I didn’t.
- All I want to be in the future is happy. Pretty would be nice too, but I know it won’t happen.
- I refuse to tell you all my darkest secrets. About my friends. About my home life. That’s what I have friends for. I don’t need to be fawned over by millions of people; I don’t crave attention 24/7.
